The dilemma I was faced with was if you were given a choice to amputate your leg to free yourself from severe pain, but also debilitate your life permanently, what would you do?
This was the nightmare decision I was faced with in September 2017 after months of missed diagnosis by my General Practitioner, a failed artery bypass and removal of a blood clot. This was precisely the unbelievable predicament that I was faced with. Although I didn’t want to lose my right leg below the knee, I also didn’t want to be in constant pain for the rest of my life. As a father of two and with my upcoming wedding, I made one of the hardest choices of my life! Despite the physical effects of limb loss being bad enough, the mental struggles for me by far outweighed anything else. I was diagnosed with depression, severe anxiety and post traumatic stress disorder as a result of the severe pain in my right lower leg.
However, after making the decision of my life and having the below the knee right leg amputation operation, I exceeded all medical expectations in terms of my recovery. I was walking again on my prosthetic leg within weeks of the operation. I was on my way to some kind of normality. I found the prosthetic hard to fit and I battled to keep myself active.
In September 2018, having made meaningful progress following my amputation came the second blow. I was advised that I unfortunately had two more blood clots which compromised my right stump massively. I therefore, underwent a second by pass procedure on my right stump due to a new clot blocking the main artery which also worryingly affected my good left leg. Thankfully, for me this cleared in my good left leg, but as a result my right stump is completely blocked and restricts how long I wear my prosthetic.
I was told that my right stump would last some 6 months due to the poor blood flow as a consequence of the blood clots. However, I was determined to over come any adversity, so I exercised to help push blood into my right stump and I have kept it alive. Getting through what I already have has given me the innerstrength to get through anything else that I will face in the future.
Life throws all kinds of situations our way and we sometimes think why me? Why this? Why now? The answer we will never know, but with strength, bravery and positive thinking we can get through anything!